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2009-11-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

I always fall sick when its ML P1. wtf. this cannot do.

on a brighter note, its only 23 days more. I'll survive it, wont I?

so, all the best, you people out there. lets kick butt, kick ass, and kick wtvr we can. make the most out of the last 20/23/31 days left in school. adios to the uniform forever.

kay, maybe not forever, since there is still nationalservice. but wtvs.

2009-09-03T23:52:00.001+08:00

I always end up freaking people out, when I actually mean well. sad.

haha. my mum vomitted so hard her denture came out and got swallowed up by toilet bowl. lols.

2009-08-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

break from mugging to enjoy great music(:

2009-08-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

Okay, I dont get it why everytime I come to the 'New Post' page it appears all wrongly uploaded. But nevertheless, that is not stopping from posting!

Here's a shoutout to everyone out there, be it if you're facing your A levels this year, or Promos, or O levels, or PSLE, or your first driving lesson, or your first date, or your new university semester, or NS.

Ganbatte! ^_^

Saturday was spent really well(: I managed to complete like 85% of my work! Time well spent.

And today? Umm yeah, I spent most of the day cleaning around the house, and cooking for breakfast, but its ok! I shall stay up tonight to really brush up on Inorganic Chemistry. Its all about the mindset now see. It is no longer about whether you can do it or not, whether you can conquer the topic or you will succumb to failure. At this moment, its about whether you believe in being able to ace-ing your work. It all boils down to the mindset, and the mentality.

Hahas, sad to say I ended up watching The Iron Empress on mysoju, cause I missed today's episode on KBS lols. But hey, I need to reward myself at times, and yeah, I know my pace is kinda slow, but remember the turtle? He was slow too, but in the end he made it, unlike the rabbit.

Soo, ganbatte ganbatte! We will make it and get our straight As, or maybe, just As next year! (:

2009-08-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

Wtf, so I'm finally legal now. Abit outdated, but yeah.

Thanks for the 'surprise' section + Kit Meng. (: You guys are very much appreciated! I was seriously not expecting it haha. And the stuffs are kinda appropriate hahas. Especially the socks!! (: Harts!!

And the bbq thingy on Saturday was just rocks! Lol, if I can use that term. Sure, there was rain and wind, but it added to the fun of it all! All the survivor-like thing, plus twister, and the bbq-ing till I smelled like smoke, and badminton, and teasing my aunt hahaha. It was energy draining, but totally, pure, undiluted fun xD And I love the shirts, lamp and laptop table. And 'Endless Love'!!! I was searching for that movie for ages!!! Hahas.

And movie on Sunday! HP6 is a bit of a disappointment, I'll give it a 5 out of 10. It was good because of the graphics and effects, and I thought the part when the Burrow was destroyed was a good add-on even though it wasn't in the book. But the sad parts weren't even sad! When Dumbledore died, when he drank the potion, it wasnt sad at all!! Wtf.

There's this whole new different feeling to it ahhahs. Legal.

2009-08-11T04:33:00.000+08:00

Stardust is a real heartwarmer <3sssssssssssssss

Right. School starts again tomorrow. Had a very shocking revelation just yesterday (Sunday) and not too sure if it's a cause for enlightenment, but oh well. We've gotta leave the past behind, dont we?

Right. Off to scrub the toilet. Yep, at 4 in the morning.

2009-08-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

Being nostalgic these past few days. Kept having recurring dreams consisting of all my childhood/secondary friends.

I remember how my class in primary 6 was broken into and the window panels removed a few weeks before PSLE. Haha. Someone supposedly wanted to steal our files and notes. -.--

Then in Secondary 4. we removed the window panels so that I could fit through and slip into the class to collect stuff we left behind on Saturday mornings before Maths. haha.

Ohh, and how Fatin and I actually sneaked into school on a Saturday evening when it was locked and there was no one around and we desperately needed to collect the costumes that were due that evening. We had to squeeze in between the metal gate and the greeen wire thingy, after climbing the gate. Lol. I missed those days when everything was so free and easy.

So, its about one month to Prelims, and lesser than 100 days to the big As itself. I'm not sure if I can actually meet up to the expectations, or my own for that matter. My language is deteriorating, and I'm actually reading constantly. At least, I got an ACMI for Chemistry. ( SCMI = Sure can make it, ACMI = Actually can make it, MFBWY = May the force be with you ) Haha. Go figure. Maths is constant practice, someone who did 3 hours of maths told me, and ML, lols. Lets not go there.

The large ulcer and vein sticking out stuff in my mouth is actually doing me one big favour. I've talked lesser over the course of these past few days because I'm reduced to cringing in pain everytime I move my mouth. And I have to stick my tongue in an awkward position to ease the pain, such that I am actually sounding like I have a lisp. Su-go-eh.

2009-08-03T00:38:00.003+08:00

Typed in a great deal of stuff before I accidentally clicked the ' New Post ' tab. -.--------------

Sat through 5 hours of Peter Brooks' The Mahabharata. It didn't really do justice to the original Hindu epic, and the international cast didnt quite work out. But you couldnt really expect much of a movie that was made in 1989. Heck, I wasn't even born back then and the technology didnt do much help.

The creative writing course which was supposed to be held at the POD, sixteenth level of the National Library turned out to be a book sharing session by an author deemed by a certain teacher to be worthy of a Nobel Prize. I beg to differ. Haha. 1515, aside, which Ive not gotten past the first chapter, Detective Indigo seemed like a far-fetched imaginary novel that didn't really arouse any curiosity or earned quite an impression. It was like yet another desperate tale of something that could probably never be achieved. Dang, or I'm just too much of a cynic/cynist, whatever.

Everyone's probably doing the countdowns to Prelims, and the big As. I am not even there yet.

I should have seen it sooner, Im not your next-door obedient child who does his work regularly and produces result. I was born with somewhat a rebellious streak, which have already shown up at the early stages of life. I mean, I was schooled in a kindergarten which has already ceased to exist, seeing as how we studied in a building similar to a kampung house and was located behind the Changi Prisons. Childhood days consisted of running along the high fences and picking unripe starfruits of trees and devouring them wholely on the frontyard of the school.

Then there was primary school. The system back then was unique. We had the front gate and the back gate, and usually, the students who lived on the other side and had to use the back gate was given the priority, cause they were the minority. They had the privilege of leaving first, so what we did was claim to be using the back gate. Then, when no one was looking, we would sneak back into the main assembly area, avoiding any teachers at all cost, using the other school's space, and use the front gate. But we got caught eventually, and were threatened with a few strokes of the cane on our thighs to remind us to wait petiently for out turn. Then, there was the almost-to-happen accident which could have proved fatal, if the taxi driver didnt have pressed the brakes in time.

All I remembered of secondary school days was of skipping night studie sessions to catch Hairspray, throwing aside elearning to visit Vivo, and sneak out library books by removing every barcode and sticker on the poor book, just so that we could read it. Somehow, we had the conscience to even think of returning back the book, but decided against it.

I can never be tamed down. ....

2009-07-27T03:47:00.000+08:00

Work hard, work hard, work hard.

Finally gained the momentum to not fall asleep during the night. Yes, it sounds wrong and ironic (who doesn't sleep at night), but I need that precious few hours when the sun is out, and the world is all quiet (technically, not the whole world, but this side of the world) to really contemplate on my studies, finish up all the work and really brush everything up. Honestly, I've not been making MUCH progress these past two nights (the first being interrupted by multiple sudden urges to the toilet), but its not too late, and the first steps have already been undertaken. Yes, expectations do pressure me, but I am no rock that will magically morph into a diamond at the end of the day. Nevertheless, there's no harm trying.

I desperately need to PASS the chemistry test tmr, or I'll be the bane of the class. =x

2009-07-18T00:27:00.003+08:00

Ive figured out how to sms in Chinese characteers. awesome.

got back all the midyear results. disappointed? not really. some was kind of expected. others was EE. I guess I should just add an 'anomaly' to my name. at least maths is not rebanding. I wanna stay in lt4(: hahahahahaahah

very much looking forward to sunday;D its been long since we spent time together. and yeah, tomorrow is section outing with the very much missed juniorsss. two of which I dont really know though hahahas.

timing is the most crucial part. the right thing at the wrong time will always be a wrong thing and cannot be undo. a wrong thing at the right time can be replaced by the right thing.

its funny how people can actually hear the wrong things. something like ' marrying a Japanese women " and having a ' non-sexual fetish for all things japanese ' can turn out to be ' marrying an angmoh ' ahahahs. I wish.

2009-07-12T22:21:00.001+08:00

Painted the whole house today. I ended up getting paint splashed on my head. Sigh.

=x

2009-07-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

Sooooooooooooo, school started as per normal. Bleahxzszx. wtff.

A great tip to get the best out of leftovers. If you happen to have leftover icecream, some caramelized strawberries with icing sugar, strawberry yoghurt, milk and ice cream, BLEND them and you get, if not perfect, then a superbly healthy drink. Hahas.

2009-07-10T00:02:00.001+08:00

Livejournal is like a mistress that I see every once in a while. Its like committing an adulterous affair behind Blogspot's back. Haha.

2009-07-09T20:11:00.002+08:00

the girl who leapt through time sapped me of my energy and emotions and I ended up waking late for the afternoon paper. made it up by sleeping for 10 minutes halfway during the paper, and the last 20 minutes. haha. im a L.

on a brighter note, no more hell.

on a sadder note, school starts again.

on a brighter note, school means :D

on a sadder note, school also means :C

Rubbish.

2009-07-09T02:14:00.004+08:00

Presentation night was okay. ajcajcajcajcajcajc lol.

Ton-ning the night, starting with The Girl Who Leapt Through Time. hahas. but I can't stand films with sad endings. There's Metropolitan, One fine spring day, The place promised in our early days, Rugrats in Paris and 10 promises to my dog. Hahs.

1o promises. sobs.

2009-07-07T00:41:00.002+08:00

As I sit here feeling damn drowsy and as if I'm on cloud nine or something, cos I feel all light and floaty and dreamy, I remembered;

I took 2 pacofen tablets(Panadol from the clinic) and 2 Panadol Extend 3 hours ago.

Ultimate.

2009-07-07T00:32:00.002+08:00

My Strawberry Glory turned out to be a shadow of its former glory. Sobsob. The crème pâtissière was overheated and curdled up and I ended up being the guinea pig to check whether its edible.

Verdict. I was stuck in the toilet bowl=/

On a brighter note, 3 days of holiday well-spent. Shopping at Daiso with Haf on Sat morning, followed by Kenny's birthday. W e weren't tired or sian or anything, there was no reason as to why we were so silent ahhahs. But time well spent with section after such a long time! Looking forward to Wednesday, totally ignoring the fact that I have a paper on Thursday afternoon hahaha. ohh and heres a Happy Birthday shoutout too the man who's only 21 but has lived to know his friend for 25 years. Lmao. =D

And no, I've not touched my Chemistry notes. And I think the phrase "I'm screwed" is getting a bit overused. Yes, I am fully ready to accept the consequences of my lax actions.

2009-07-04T00:19:00.001+08:00

I didnt know there was a question 11 for the second Math paper. I thought it ended at 10. =/

Me dislike: stupid, redundant advertisements on tv3 that waste time.

2009-07-02T21:47:00.001+08:00

Ohh did I mention, its a madhouse here?

2009-06-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

Its a madhouse here. I am fighting a losing battle. But its worth the attempt.

For now, studystudy.

Throw 'em down the drains
Chuck 'em out of the door
Keep the lids on 'em

2009-06-27T22:30:00.002+08:00

Phone, where art thou?

If you are not-prepared-for-Mid-Years-and-you-are-very-worried-and-you-know-you-are-doomed,
Clap your hands.
If you are not-prepared-for-Mid-Years-and-you-are-very-worried-and-you-know-you-are-doomed,
Clap your hands.
If you are not-prepared-for-Mid-Years-and-you-are-very-worried-and-you-know-you-are-doomed, and you really want to show ir
If you are not-prepared-for-Mid-Years-and-you-are-very-worried-and-you-know-you-are-doomed,
Clap your hands.

2009-06-24T21:50:00.001+08:00

My dreams, all shattered. My hopes, all crashed.

ohh, how morbid. I will diminish, and go into the West and remain Ashraf.

2009-06-24T20:49:00.003+08:00

depot road was lmao. haha. 5 frigging hours in the cold, wtff. and yeah, blood was spilling out of my wound hahas.

I had a real motivating dream last night, it was a mix of everything; horror, suspense, etc. and I shall try to reduce computer intake. and chiongggg for A levels.

2009-06-22T05:06:00.004+08:00

Come, come away to Neverland.

Sacrificed the night just to finish, if not the best, but certainly the most sincere Dad's Day gift. At the same time, watched Lavender, Waterboys and PETERPAN! haha, so wthh. I shall try to write a book one day based on the events in Lavender, and call it Scent of Heaven. hahas.

Aim to study productively later on! ((: and Im praying real hard theyre gonna give that 7 days. I so badly need it=/

Im getting real good at this. but the camera's not doing any justice.

2009-06-21T00:12:00.001+08:00

My hair got stuck in the mini-fan when I was playing around with. What a waste of good damn hair.

2009-06-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

omggg wthhh I am tempted.

2009-06-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

2 days with Fatin = Pure fun

Yesterday

Supposed to be studying, but ended up getting distracted. Starbucks is awesomeness, and HC is heaven. We ended up singing, making fun JV, laughing at the guy beside us and just being ourselves. Hehs.

Today

Gave up halfway, and just went around doing stupid things till our feet hurt, our heads ache, and our stomachs rumbled. I have a splitting headache now, damn naseuous and feel like sleeping.

Okay, Im really grateful for this h1n1 epidemic now cause it might give us more time to study for the MYEs. I am really getting no where with my revision. And I kinda wished I had chosen to go to poly instead.

But if I did, I wouldnt have met so many wonderful people.

P/s, borrowed Peterpan, cause someone reminds me of someone.

2009-06-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

Unreplied sms-es. Sigh

2009-06-16T03:58:00.002+08:00

WE HART TVXQ. haha. okay. wthh. thats uncalled for.

Today. studied at t3. did quite a bit of work, moved to esplanade library, did more work. walked around suntec, looking for the non-existent IT fair which ended yesterday (we swear we didnt know!) walked around suntec some more, lamenting the lack of moolahs to shop during the gss sale, did crazy things in carefour, walked till our legs rot, listened to live piano/violin performance, cam-med pathetically even though there's only the two of us, jaywalked like lunatics in fron of the esplanade, walked up the steps to marina square to get coins, only to realize I had coins in my pocket all the while, walked all the way to the other bus stop and went home.

thanks Haf, for being such a great mad partner. I swear my retardedness is brushing on to you. you know you want it hahaha.

I feel so accomplished, to have finally started reading my lecture notes(: someone told me that forget the fact that its 2 weeks to midyears and Im not prepared yet, but rather just start studying with the As in mind haha. I suppose its credible advice, since that someone got a ABBB, and claiming that he hails from a lousy jc. ya rightt.

2009-06-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

I wonder how it felt like, announcing that 10k dowry. Whoo~ Rich people, rich.

FIRST STEP TO PASSING MY MIDYEARS: ARRANGING MY NOTES.

Whatt an achievement. Arranging a3 pile of notes after waking up at noon is no easy feat, but it's done-able! Lol. Next step, will be to start studying. I wonder if I can even make it. And the pressure's not turning me into any diamond or anything, its causing me to seek solace in other things. Bah.

Holidays tend to make me forget that I have school. And there's no wayy I'm ever going over next-door to get a bride, no way. I am not embracing my roots that way.

2009-06-11T10:57:00.003+08:00

I am so freaaaaaaking screwed, sobs. Lost all motivation, and the phone wallpaper thingy is not doing any good.

On a brighter note, I ~~woke up early~~didnt sleep last night and went for a run around the neighbourhood. Came back sweaty and sticky, I wished I hadnt bathe when I stepped out of house haha. Ran the first round, but walked when I reached Primemart haha.

And I discovered that I have two teeth hidden underneath my inner cheeks, one on the left and the other on the right, and only like, part of it can be seen cause its covered by a blob of pink gooey stuff.

There's a PSP at home now, and Patapon's really got me addicted. The new R4 has been updated with FE: Shadow Dragon and all the action replay needed. I've got 2 requests for the name band. And there's a wedding event lasting from tmr till Saturday.

In other words, I am pretty, freaking screwed for Midyears. Should consider moving out and renting an apartment.

patapon, patapon, pata, pata, pon, pata.

2009-06-07T23:40:00.002+08:00

met up with fatin and syeda to celebrate fatin's birthday, even though its tmrw. she cried when she saw me, cause she didnt expect me to be there. lol. glad to know I made such an impact on someone's life. but then again, we've been friends for 6 years now lol. very, veryy close friends. trust her to disappear after that incident. oh well. at least things are patched up now.

had our share of laughter, fun, crap, joy, laughter, insults, jokes, camwhoring sessions, and more laughter! omfg, I so miss them, haha. and yes, I was the one who was urging everyone to take photos. lol. too bad I dont have my own camera or I'll go crazyyy.but I really laughed my heart, guts and intestine out. zomg. haha. it was just mad.

fatin's stories always make us realize of how fortunate we are sometimes to have a family, if not perfect, at least that can be there for us to give us the support and backing we need. she's gone through a lot, as Ive seen for the past 5 years. Ive accompanied her from one house to another, draggin her belongings. Ive seen her brave tides. Ive seen her gone through shit from everyone. Ive seen her being fall, then pick herself up again. and Im glad that Ive been there for her when I could(:

so, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SRINURFATIN! we're 6 years, and going strong(:

the highlight was the day was wehn we stood outside the velocity shop thingy while waiting for 21, and singing 'Im Yours' over and over again, prompting syeda to record us. but she didnt. drats. haha. so we moved on to random hellogoodbye tracks, before settling on this old malay classic. hahaha. so attention-seeking. lols.

and when I reached home, my close-to-fairytale-like day was perfected when fiz finally came online. its like all the important people who have been missing in my life suddenly decided to turn up again. zomgzomgzomgzomgzomgzomgzomgzomg. so I had a really perfect day today, and it feels like a dream. haha.

sadly, Ived got to wake up from this dream cause there's school tmr, and theres a chem test and the last time I touched my chem notes were the last lecture. bloodyhell. and there's a stain on my new bag where the bottle spilt water. the white's turned yellow, wtfff.

im yourss

2009-06-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

What started out as a bag initially turned into a bag, jeans, and a shirt. lols. I saved for the bag okayy. 2 weeks worth of starving in school, dieting on biscuits.

Wanted: Slavedriver to force student to study for Midyears. Negotiable wages, flexible hours. Ability to converse well in English is a must. Good looks' a plus. Interested, please leave contact(:

The esplanade library should ban me from borrowing anything. Just today, I brought home Nausicaa, Kiki and Totoro, plus a few other scores. haha. Cmi.

2009-06-04T23:57:00.004+08:00

I wanna go watch Coco avant Chanel. and JPBC. and Dance Subaru. and so many more other movies. raawr.

freaking fatin disappeared just like that, and have now resurfaced again. haha. its her 18th next monday, and Im sudenly invited to her birthday celeb on sunday, with syeda. she's deaad the moment I see her.

Im in love with disney. and I woke up smiling this morning(: sighs.

2009-06-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

I promise to not skip anymore Econs lecture(:

2009-06-02T00:00:00.002+08:00

sadly enough, my memory was triggered and I was hoping it was the right person. I think it was haha. thats why you suddenly disappeared. damn you haha.

gp paper. ahh, screw. what the hell is civility and all that other stuff? I swear the only thing I could relate to was the vulgarity part. haha. and paper 1? lost track of what I was writing halfway, so, I am in dire need of a miracle.

lols. threadless tees are nice, but theyre ex despite the 5bucks gimmick. thats 14bucks once you ship it here, and converting that to our currency, its about 42bucks. Id rather save for a bag. lols.

MOVING ON!

p/s; watched this chinese film 我的最愛, haha, the ending is so melodramatic!! omg. stoopid guy who didnt learn from his lesson. and the other poor guy has to suffer and die! lols. bitchy ending, but oh well.

2009-05-31T00:17:00.003+08:00

watched boys over flower, FINAL, the movie. they were showing it on MaM.

paid the library its dues, so now Im free to borrow stuff again. brought back 5 scores and 2 books. I shall try to return them punctually this time around, seeing as the new library policy does not allow any loaning of items in the event of any fines. bleahx.

Our Jeremy Sumpter

Peterpan in modern Neverland
Concrete walls and midday heat
Strolling from theatre to theatre
Hook's in his lair, urging us
Voice over the P.A. system.

Redhead's been eyeing
That smile which kills
And eyes that charm
Recall so subtly
The back of your head
and your voice, which ..

Have you realized,
or still continuing with the charade
Feigning ignorance
Pretending, acting dumb
Misleading,

Here's an ode to one
Who goes gaga over dances
Over money and honey
Brown eyes, fame and poker
I can't read you, paparazzi
xoxo xoxo xoxo

random, and out of the blue. but, being a lit student as I am, it's not as simple as it seems haha. and no, i'm not trying at being your next dan brown. ohh but Ive got to say, julia navarro is an excellent writer. Ive already read two of her books which have been translated into english, and theyre commendable.

2009-05-29T23:21:00.003+08:00

I love fridays(:

i dreamt of a dream in a dream during the night. kept waking up cause my brother was conveniently kicking me from below. wtt.

renmeng is a fun badminton partner! hahas. I shall help you to learn malay lol.

and i totally think malay couples who run to the library, sit in the corner and start flirting with each other like as if they are the only ones there should be BANNNED from visiting the library.

studied after school. haha, they are so inconsistent lol, changing their minds every 10 minutes. stayed on with hafidzah to finish up all the work, then I ran! 13 rounds today! yayy. but people were blocking the track. sobbs. go play your ball games somewhere else laaaa.

my official blog title on the dashboard is rather crude, as I just realised.

finished downloading RECESS recordings. I am vey sadd. the solo in endless love is not that audible, but needless to say, that song still gives me goosebumps. hahas.

my love, there's only you in my heart~

emo much.

p/s; angels&demons was lovedd. yeah, they altered the plot and cut out a lot of important parts and characters, but the whole movie still rocked. ehh, Ive read the book ok, in fact all of dan brown, and Im waiting for the solomon key. I got goosebumps watching it. its so much better than shtty da vinci code the movie. haha

2009-05-28T23:17:00.005+08:00

I basically pig-ged on food today. briyani. biscuits, yoghurts, instant noodles. simply eating non-stop. and now I'm as full as I-dont-know-what. wheww.

but you cant blame me cos I'm only 45kg. thats, like a dip from 48kg.

walked around tampines1 for the third time, second time this week. this time around, I was with my mum, so I kinda got her to get me those name bracelet thing from the disney store. yes, I admit I led a deprived childhood. the only thing I remembered from my past was lying stomach down in front of the door, wearing nothing except for my briefs, and reading the newspaper. haha. and I really need a new bag. the bags from japan are cute and nice, but they're wayy to small to fit all the stuff Im bringin to school.

theres like, the green japanese umbrella, personal organizer, over-sized tumbler, set of extra clothes (just in case I run after school, which has not happened for two weeks already!!),two pencil cases, GC, a4sized notebooks, box of salonpas, packet of panadols, notes which I cant stuff into my overflowing file which needs organizing, usual 2 packets of aspen yoghurt bar which I always give away, either a box of cereals or a few packets of biscuits, container of sweets, and the iPod which I can never leave home without.

and when there's pe, there's still the towel and the red bag of toiletries. and not forgetting extra sets of undergarments, socks, whatevers. ohh, plus the shoebag which I try to shove in between the notes.

its like 16 things on a normal day, and close to 20 on tuesday or friday. into a friggin small bag which will bulge so uglily. urgh.

2009-05-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

sigh, sobsob. I give up.

gp paper's next week=/
after which, i shall devote my entire life to studying throughly. i want to pass, badly=/

3 weeks of no school. got to find myself another source of motivation to keep on going, temporarily.

anyway, triton got 5th for colosseum. heck, I know the cheerleading people really put their heart and soul in to the dance segment, so even though it really matters, its alrighttt. we've seen your hardwork and we acknowledge it. like they said, you can't be at the top for too long. at some point of time, youve got to step down, take the back seat and let other people get the glory and honour. and then, you take it back from them.

I'll be catching angels&demons tmr, alone I suppose hahs. consider it as a treat for getting an S, my first non-U grade for chemistry test, throughout my whole 1 year plus in mj(:

sigh.

2009-05-25T23:03:00.002+08:00

everybody's pms-ing at home. wtff, how am I even suppose to do homework or studyy like that?

evening well-spent. soccer match was exhilirating. I admit, its the second live soccer match I've ever watched, but it was fun. all the shouting and cheering, I was convinced that I already lost my voice, but dang it came back hahas. seem like as if I swallowed a whistle when I was young. yehh, then after the match, OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG hahas. but anyway, after that we went for dinner at lj, crapped throughout. I was constantly blurting out lame jokes as usual but oh well hahas. walked around like as if it wasnt a monday (it didnt feel like a monday!!) Im so looking forward to thursday lols.

OMGOMGOMG tmr! hahas. its nerve-wrecking(:

so mj soccer guys got 2nd. so? haha. at least they showed off excellent sportsmanship and I seriously throw my hats off for them, unlike some other people. did the vj handsign thing and came up with our own mj sign. lols. oh well.

2009-05-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY FLORENCE MARGARET WATERMELON WONG JIA YI!

I hoped you loved the video, as much as me, qin and hafidzah enjoyed doing it. I hoped you were really surprised, seeing as how it was rather last-minute and not that surprising. anyway, yeahh. hahas. if I were to type out everything I feel like saying, i swear it'll take like tons of space, so I'll just keep it to myself uh. hahahas.

continue mis-pronouncing and mis-saying words! thats so jiayi, no one else can do it. hahas yay!!

my birthday's next people! *hint,hint* I want something surprising, awesome, over-the-top, fab, glam, surprising, shocking, out of the box, different, surprising, memorable, sweet, 'event-of-the-year' yes, I repeated surprising threeee times. or you can just simply put a ribbon on top of someone(: hahahaha. that'll be more than enough.

okay wth, jkjk.

2009-05-21T00:23:00.002+08:00

*sniffs*coughs*sneezes*

ahh. bad flu bug. bad, bad flu bug. I missed the soccer match todayy. sadded. but i ended up following my mum for her evening jog. i swear theyy have the funniest jogs ever. it starts of with a walk to 207's excercise corner, where we'll sort of workout at all the machines. then after like, half an hour, they'll just walk. lols. walk home the long route which will take up to another hour.

but the best part was that we ended up sitting at the playground for quite a long time, just talking and gossiping. hahs. what joy.

i doubt it can last, lols. we are all so pre-occupied with our own commitments which has been thrown at us after we have gained our so-called liberty.

2009-05-20T00:00:00.005+08:00

' your hair and eyebrow is not the same colour, biiiiiiiiiiiiitch'

I swearr thats the funniest thing ive heard, in like weeks, after Ive been deprived of my daily dose of ever-nonsensical section (okayy, im th only nonsensical one, but heck).

library@esplanade is a good retreat. I diligently spent 2 hours there finishing my long-overdued chemistry homework, with no distraction except for this little boy, his mum and grandma. lols. saw razif on the way back and I swear he looks different; I was staring at him for a full 5 seconds, trying to recognize this guyy who suddenly talked to me.

school's been okay, but the mood's abit dampened without band. I tried to run on monday but there was heats. tried to run again just now but apparently both th soccer teams were practicing and the field wasnt empty (there was still a lot people!) so I ended up walking home. bleah. thanks, rapunza. but still, demonstration, demonstration! hahas.

em's th new love I guess. its been much appreciated now that I understand the working, principle and analysis behind it(:

tangan terikat ke langit
kaki terpacak di bumi
jasad tidak setaraf mimpi

2009-05-15T22:55:00.010+08:00

life can get really disappointing=/ but its not life itself which disappoints us. its ourselves.

hahas, why so philosophical. lols. anywayy, i almost fainted during 2.4 hahas. so unfit, bleahs. but i feel so productive after school, i actually finished 2 chem tutorials. ignoring th fact that a template was provided for one, i can vomit bloooooood looking at th tons of stuff i have to understand, memorise, and make second nature in emm, 5 months?

anywayy, here's a tribute to trumpets 08/09, mjcsb.

Yoko Evonne(Ono) & John *******(Lennon) `09

best section leaderr ever(: we all know who's behind th black veil. OMG hahas. we shall get you a comb and potato peeler for your birthdayy! lmao. continue swearing, cos you make swears cool, and burp it all out!! ms ongsssh:) i enjoyed being stuckk with you throughout th first parts hahas. (okayy that sounds abit wrong)

Anna Poi(Sui) `09

bus 21 partner! hahs. and th one who's thr most of th time for when i call for practices and section run! remember th shadows, during th run? lols. anyways, we shall strive for a dayy when we come right on time for th bus! hahas. please eat! eat th 3 months hahas, you-know-i-know rofl(:

Hafidzah(Albert) Einstein `09

hahas, all th long walks full of many shared secrets, tales, songs, MIDIs, woes, joys, sorrows and whatnots. thanks for actually 'stand'-ing me throughout!! we need to get around to seriously work out the machu picchu MV sehhh! it cannot be another say-only idea!! but TERIMA KASIH for being there almost all th time! XD

Donkey, Zy(Sh)rek, F(iona)WM, Puss `09

florence watermelon margaret(fwm)! omgawd! hahas, i daresay youre one of th closest person to me. everything also, i tell you first hahas. anywayy, please dont resort to flitirtion too much, make sure you have inirtia and stayy strong, dont indulge in too much vallina, cholocate or strawreby icecream, remember to warm down at all times, dont get too nervis, act prossefional, reduce your verbal abeau, and dont forget periosity! any that i missed? aww, i hart you(: dont eat too much prk.

Beauty Queen Liqinnnnn `09

liqinn-sannnnnnnnn! we love your camera!! hahahs. ARIGATO for all th section runs which lasted like emm, 45 minutes!! hahas, nice legs nice legs! prettty please eat more too!!! hahas ok, now i suddenly feel hungry. but anywayy, omgosh, i wanna learn how to play the piano too!! and th bags we bought at lee cooper in nagashima dream land? lolx(:

we may not be th best section or most improved or outstanding whatsoever. but we really kick ass, and we're cool for being sent out th most time! thats cause we've got out own yellow submarine!!

so trumpeters, anytime we hit a rock, or a fallen log that is blocking our progress, just remember that we've indeed been through worse. we've walked through th blaze, braved through th storm, bathed in molten lava, indulged in pain and emerged as one, in fact better(:

we've been through
`__sleep-stolen nights,
`____late practices,
`______sacrificed weekends,
`________pressure, stress and everything else

we came,
`__we sang(out of tune),
`____we (mis)pitched,
`______we tongued(still needs sharpening!!),

we laughed,
`__ate,
`____crapped,
`______emo-ed,

we slept,
`__overslept
`____slacked,
`______get chased out(countless times),
`________ran,
`__________missed the runs,
`____________overslept when we're supposed to run

we slept in lectures,
`__rushed through late works
`____made th band room our second home
`______saw each other everyday till we couldnt not meet
`________suan-ed and made fun of one another to th max
`__________ and became almost like a family.

so whats th next 5 months? anytime you feel like slitting your wrist or start taking panadols, or even emo on msn, just remember,

so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend.

even when all others have move on, i'll backtrack just to ensure you move on too(:

love, your ever, perpetual pain-in-th-ASS.

2009-05-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

omgosh. i feeeeeel so backwards in tutorials and lectures. like im still trying so hard to catch up and be on time with everybody else='/

if i could just stop everything to a stand stilll! bleahsaargh. this so sucks. omgomgomgomgomg.

can i camp in school? at least there's no tv, no laptop and no couch. and there're actually tables and chairs for me to use=/

:((((((((((((

2009-05-09T00:27:00.002+08:00

listening to the SYF recording can only do so much but bring back wonderful memories of th band. sighs.

stepping down is the harsh reality now. syf robbed me of my free time and without realizing, i willingly gave it. all of a sudden, my nights are free. my wednesdays evening are free. my friday evenings are empty. and i wont get to see section everyday. sadded.

wednesday morning came so fast, we thought it was still quite ago that we had 69 days to it. i was late-_- but i still made it. the euphoria of finally facing th day itself was undescribable. th pressure was unforgettable. and then we were already tuning and waiting outside th hall. that moment with ms sia joking around was something worth remembering. i can still recall the feelings in my nerve back then.

and then it came to F. omgosh hahas. evonne said she could feel th nervousness and th fear emanating from me. i swear, using an oft-used cliche, my heart was going mad and wild and it was something ive never felt before and it was something i liked because of th energy it provided me with afterthat. and as soon as we started, it was over. we camwhored outside th hall, went for lunch, camwhored somemore, and then went in for results.

the general feeling between liqin, evonne and me at that time was just anxiety and fear after they said we can expect lower. evonne was already crying ande i couldnt bother to do anything else. but when they announced that 'gold', i didnt cheer or clap. i merely sighed. but contained within that sigh was all the anxiety, fear, nerves, and months of arduous, torturous hardwork which required tons of sacrifice. (:

my heart went out to tj=s

and now, its already 2 days since 6th may, but it felt like another thousand years have gone by. band just now was moving and extremely emotional. th gift really touched me, a sincere artifact representing gratitude and appreciation that words can never express. thanks to sharilyn, vanessa and amirah. th video was ok and yess, i didnt cry hahas. but i almost teared up when i saw th photo that captured my momentary glory in japan. i could die for moments like that.

bbq was fun. camwhored non-stop. fanned th fire throughout, as usual hahs. im so gonna miss section, even if you people dont miss my crazy antics, lame remarks, retarded comments and below frequency jokes.

ive never been a good band member, let alone th best section mate or ASs you can get. but i hope ive tried my best(:

2009-04-29T00:37:00.002+08:00

silver. disappointed? yepp. surprised? not really.

ganbatte everyone. 7 days. can we stop all this and just be sincerely nice to one another, pour our heart and soul in to practicing and aim for that state of perfection despite th fact that it may need more than a miracle for that? maybe two, three. idk.

):sadded. true, we can still meet up after syf, and still go for runs or dinners or lunches, but it'll be different. cause we will no longer be rushing for band or emoing after practice. imagine that? no more being rushed for band by mummy. no more emoing after a really bad day of combines. no more seeing the faces of the people you cant stand or have something against. wonderful, innit?

back then, i really dread th day where we will all have to pray as a section so that we can play. somehow, that day seem so close. but nonetheless, i have faith, and i have passion. in all of us.

in the section, i trust.

2009-04-27T23:36:00.005+08:00

its clear 4 all 2 c,
dat x = u & y = me,
mere variables in geometry.
x = y,
its perfect symmetry,
x + y,
u complete me.

hahas. i was so beat during school today. i slept during chem, i slept during maths. i was so hungry during tutee sectionals but yehh, hahahs, i saw something which kinda kept me going. lols, wth. anyways, yepp thats th poem that i randomly crafted during my break period and ended up sending it to mr hing for the sms poetry competition and it won lols(:

this is why you should have an intent when you write this kind of stuff. it adds more meaning and life to it.

2009-04-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

death comes to all things, be it tangible or abstract. we've just got to face that fact(:

sleepover in school was crazy. band practice before that was okay, even though it was almost a whole day thing. took lots of pictures hahs. jy went around kissing random trumpeters, yehhs, and ended up kissing someone else on the lips. nahh, there wasnt any tongue action though=P
we were sharing ghost stories till like 3 plus in th morning when we were supposed to be doing hw. but wth, everyone slept till seven plus and we had breakfast after that.

i reached home and pigged till six. which means another sleepless night just to complete all th homework i have to do by tmr morning. awesome.

at this point, i really cannot imagine life without band. wednesday and friday evenings will suddenly be so empty. and there's th section. to think that only evonne was so enthusiastic about th japan trip, and th rest of us were still considering. but in th end, all of us went and we really had so much fun together=) then there were the prctices before th trip itself; our first time getting chased out from combined (big band, hahs), all th sectionals we willingly did back then, all th section dinners on friday night, section sleep at th gallery, section emo session at macs and kfc.

needless to say weve been through alot together, to th point that sometimes, we just have to see each other everyday. so, thank you for all th great times we had and many apologies.

we'll pull through this wont we? it just another 9 days. and then it'll be 8, 7, 6 and no more days left. yet, we still have so much to accomplish together. promise we'll still be thr for one another like how we've always had, even when thr's no more band. cause we're more than just a section=)

2009-04-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

post-band activities are a loves.

it was really fun and crazyyy to suddenly crash tbe cymbals or play the piano when people are so intently listening to ghost stories in th band room in the dark=) but its no so fun anymore when youve just listened to a song excerpt from a horror movie in the dark and someone knocks on the windowpane and you think it came from the store room, and you think theres someone out there whos trying to get out.

i think being really afraid is a very psychological thing, and the supposed 'ghosts or demonic apparitions' kinda feed on our fears.

12 more dayyyyyyyyys. after which i dont know how life would be like. right okay maybe i do. itll be all time mugging and cupping and flasking and glassing. for the As. hurs. but at least i have other forms of incentives to look forward to in school, besides band.

right. whole day in school tmr. run in th morning, band in th day, stayover in school at night!! wooots((((:

2009-04-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

okay yes i dont usually dig malay songs hahaahs. but yehh, i actually liked the original song, by the same female singer back then, like years ago. and i thought they did quite an admirable new version, paying respects to the original song of course, by not changing the main melody which repeats throughout.

so its about teenage life, and all that shits.

2009-04-20T23:58:00.001+08:00

hahas emm ok, wth.

im so f***ing tired. wthairr.

2009-04-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

okayy omg i feel so productive todayy. i organised ALL my notes, arranged them neatly, realised that some of them are blank and some of them are missing hahs. and i attempted to do the work i have to hand in for next week=) omg yay hahahs.

why would you care to count the stars in the sky when theres one in your eye.

2009-04-18T23:06:00.003+08:00

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life is too short to be disappointed and sad all the time=) sooooo, let that disappointment overwhelm us for a while, let us weep in the grief and let us pour out all our sadness.

after that, we pull ourselves up and face the world as we did before.

hahas, with all the recent developments in the housing area (Tampines 1, the proposed MRT line coming soon, all the lift upgrading thingy), there seems to be the negative externality that comes along with it. my void deck is becoming like the axis of all things evil hahas, attracting all kinds of stuff, like there was a police case earlier regarding drugs (I think) and the students from the school in front. then, just now, when I reachd home, the uncle from the 1st floor house was shouting and swearing, yepp, profanities and vulgarities at a group of stoopid matreps and minahs who were obviously showing off their promicuity for all to see. it wasnt th first time, theyve been engaging in kisses and stuff ever since, and the uncle has been giving them warning, but apparently, they were nonchalant. hahas. soo, the police came and yehh.

most probably, after this, theyre gonna install security guards or policemen to patrol my neighborhood. awesome.

but that didnt stop me from coercing my mum to follow me to tampines1 and get the very last waffle cone from yamakawa. and its $6.20!! daylight robbery, but heck ahh. yepppps, i LOVE yamakawa!! hahas. i just hope theyy bring in the strawberry milk tea from japan in december=))))

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2009-04-18T02:03:00.002+08:00

I didnt get to donate blood at this year's blood drive. All because I had to fall sick on the two days it was being held. Boo=( But I did get to be the mascot on Tuesday hahahs.

The medication is making me drowsy, like as if I'm all drunk and drugged, which renders me helpless to do anything fruitful or productive, such as homework or revision, and yes, I mean REVISION. Cause I am so behind everything and lagging in studies I can feel the pressure and stress which is causing me to fall sick in the first place. And there's SYF on top of that=X

I see quite alot of people stepping down from their CCAs to retire for the As. I dread and hope for that day to come. While it clearly means I have the liberty of focusing 100% on my studies, it also mean that the one thing that is distracting me from everything else has been robbed of me. No more sectionals to look forward to, no more combines to worry for, no more section outings to enjoy, no more section runs to avoid& no more solos and pieces to practice hard for.

Once that freaking last note is played on the 6th May, it would be a symbolic impression for the end of my time in MJCSB for that period. Sadded.

Which means the last 18 days must be used to its fullest potential(:

2009-04-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

Holy crap. I cant stop eating. Like seriously, seriously cannot stay away from food=x Help!!

Anyways, overdued updates. The JB trip was fabulous!! Too bad the rest didnt take much photos, or as much as I did. If I had brought my own cam, I would be like taking photos every minute hahahs., But it was really enriching, learned new stuff, tried making my own thread from pineapple leaves. The owner of the homestay programme place looks like my late grandfather(:

I brought like 11 packets of crackers hahas. And in the bus we were karaoke-ing throughout, shouting 'TAK TAHU' at the top of our voices at songs that were foreign, and watching Lantai 13. It was a really coooool experience.

halfway throughout the trip, i suddenly had this longing hahas.

SYF's coming soon!! The prospect of being able to see ` in school everyday provides the drive to endure the whole day=)

anyways, GIVE BLOOD, SAVE LIVES(: Im gonna be doing it too, I guess, besides being the mascot. which means, more pictchas! hahas

2009-04-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

Chase of the blue dove.

Yes, I do watch Korean dramas like Boys over Flower and A Love to Kill on KBS. Despite the fact that the television should be the very last thing I turn to in preparations for As. And there's AF7(: Hahas, prettyyy. But not as pretty pretty as (: hahas.

Block tests results are depressingkind of expected, I deserved them, for not putting in enough effort. And I know Im kinda screwed right now, be it studies or band.

2009-04-05T21:42:00.003+08:00

The outing to S.A.M was today hahs. It was ok lar=)

Accompanied Khai to Queenstown, with Rika, to get gloves. It was really a good way to get to know each other more lols.

School starts again tmr. Which means band too. Sighs. But on a better note, it also means, yehh. Hahahs.

2009-04-05T21:34:00.001+08:00

Bermusim resah hadir membelai
Menyentuh hati kecewa
Janji sehidup semati
Tinggal tiada lagi
Impian hancur depan mata

2009-04-04T23:24:00.001+08:00

Beat, exhausted, shagged, tired, worn out, dying. But heck, 've been through worse, so we'll pull through.

And its a privilege=)

2009-04-03T00:57:00.003+08:00

I didnt go school today=X which sucks, cause I miss alot.

Im currently watching this documentary on KBS on an arts college in Korea, Korean National University of Arts where all the gifted kids enter. They featured all the different art froms; theatre, instruments, choral and dance. And its very impressive, seeing how some of them are as young as 17, and they are really passionate about what they do, be it musicals, dancing or even playing music. They put their heart and soul into practicing and improving their crafts.

Like, there was this saxophone guy who actually held his own solo concert so that others would be encouraged to follow his lead and have the courage to perform in public. Their drama class had one lesson where they teacher threw thumbtacks onto the floor and the whole class was supposed to find and collect all 51 thumbtacks again. The lesson of the day was that to them, acting is looking for something small.

I think it applies for everything that we do. We must always treat it as looking for something small, something that is subtle and not that obvious. It all takes a little focus, determination, preserverence and a whole damn lot of passion.

These are the kind of people that are willing to bleed because of their passion and love for something. They have my total admiration.

If only I can be like them,

2009-04-01T23:17:00.003+08:00

Recognizes the symptoms. Aware of the disturbance. But is it alright?

Hehs i suck at letting go of the past.

Anyways, there was a blackout for my whole block, and I almost bumped into my ~~bangla~~neighbour if not for his white shirt. Hahhs. Run just now was very fun=D But i feel super tired and nauseatic now.

2009-03-31T21:13:00.002+08:00

If I could get something right now, I want a shoulder to rest on right now.

Boohoohoohoohoohoohoohoohoohoohoo='s Wake up, wake up! running is no longer just a routine to keep fit. it has a metaphoric meaning to it. it serves as a distraction, like as if its a run away from everything. Void. Empty.

2009-03-30T21:57:00.002+08:00

Ive decided not to be a hindrance and continue chasing after emptiness, after what would never be=D

Im different, and I like it. so accept it.

Section is right. Only guys can be jerks.

And I failed chem, which was kinda expected=x

Loooong run after self-practice. Quite a good distraction.

2009-03-29T19:49:00.004+08:00

Ohhhmygod! Band camp was pure ecstasy=D

So I had Malay Lit paper before that! Wtf, I realized we had to write 5 essays before the paper. My finger was aching like mad for writing non-stop, and by the 4th essay, I was so exhausted I didn't know what I was writing hahs.

Band camp!! Hahahs. SO first day was like killing us all. We ended late but we didn't sleep at night lols, cause section was busy telling ghost stories and sharing lame jokes. I crossed the Virginity Line hahhahs.

Second day was quite fun. I went crazy during the Treasure Hunt with my group, and even though we came in 5th, it was fun!=D Sectionals after that was okayy, but tiring. Cause everyone was so sleepy and all. Then it was the BBQ. hahahahahasomg.

Thank you Mr Wong for staying at out pit. I felt really bad when he sat down at our pit and just continued bbq-ing food for the section but yehh=) You really rock, and JY rolls hahahs. Just too bad we got 1 pit for 11 people and some other section got 2 for 13 people. The skit was fun, I improvised last minute and did some weird things, which I think really humiliated me big time. Hahas. We didnt really sleep early that night either. Watched Koizora with section, but Pohyi slept!! Hehs. Sharilyn cried, and Amirah sniffed hahahahs. And I slept at the other side of the Virginity Line this time round wtf. *im not a virgin aaargh*

The last day was as good as the first two! There was wet games and I was wet even before the first game started. So I just sacrificed myself for the subsequent games and got even wetter. Its ok even if the group only won 3 games. We had fun, we did! But we didn't manage to take a photo cause people were always missing, and the only time we had a full group was during bbq=D

And it was over just like that. Back to life. Back to reality. So reminiscent of the last day of Japan trip=x

Pohyi, rest well and get your voice backk again! (me too, me too)
Liqin, stay strongg! (jiayous!!)
Jiayi arh, bitch lesser can? Hehs, but you really rock. and roll. (hahas kazuto!!)
Hafidzah, go sleep, sleep, sleep! (your hair's reallyy freakky)
And I think Evonne's one of the best section leader you can get.

k3Us.

2009-03-26T23:47:00.001+08:00

Just one more.

And then I'll fly free.

2009-03-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

I lost 3o marks for Maths=X There's this weird feeling like as if the block tests are over, even though I still have a paper on Friday evening, like so wt-no-life. Ohh but there's band camp after that.

So last week up till now have been full of semi-mugging and fb-ing. This retard quiz I took said I am was to die on the 19th October 2008. Theoretically, I am already dead. Gooood.

When life gives you lemons, you throw it back and demand for better.

2009-03-23T22:31:00.003+08:00

Good at: crapping. I stared at the question paper and the first thing that came to mind was, WTF is a recession? Anything to do with recess?

So I mainly crapped throughout. Hahs. I ~~crapped~~ finished the whole paper ok=D

I have a bottomless pit for a stomach. I am literally hungryy all the time.

2009-03-23T00:07:00.001+08:00

Plastic, youre so plastic.

Sincere is merely an embellishment, serving no real purpose or its true meaning.

Stop being an irony and a contradiction to yourself.

2009-03-22T21:35:00.003+08:00

Yay. Yay. Yay.

MBTs are finally starting. Which means they'll be over soon. Yeppps.

Which also means I am ultimately screwed. I slept after the run and woke up at 7, and Ive not touched my Econs notes. Awesome.

Thr ~~run~~ ~~walk~~ stroll was *erm* haha. We were late, but it was still fun. The mass exercise section was all laughs but it was tiring hehs. We ran the last 100m I think.

Why should I give up now when I've not given up 9 months ago=)

2009-03-21T23:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the very person you hide all your secrets from is the very one you can trust the most. And the very person we pin our hopes on and assume will be there for us all the time will be the very one that will disappoint us time after time.

But we are just blinded by prejudices, perceptions and narrow-minded presumptions to see it.

We call ourself modernised, liberal-minded and civilised creatures but sometimes, we are just like the very Nendearthals we describe in our history assignments. Probably more primate and ancient than them.

Studying alone can prove to be the most effective. Studied alone (yehh, loser) Macs@T3 from morning till like 3 plus before I headed to Esplanade library to return my long overdued book and borrow some more.

MBT can just go awayy. I cannot care less hehs.

2009-03-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

Almonds are peaches. Wow.

Dammit lar. Fb is super addictive. Boohoos.

I srsly need to go get study partner who can ton with me and study anytime. Hehs.

2009-03-19T21:41:00.001+08:00

I know what my last words will be before I die.

Cough, cough, sniffs, gasp.

Go figure. Whoever manages to decipher that will get the largest portion of the wealth that I will leave behind hahas.

2009-03-19T20:48:00.002+08:00

Wah piang. My head hurt like f*ck, and Im beginning to cough. Knn.

I know Ive not been a very good person, but is this the best time for me to get sick? Ive got MBTs to worry about, and the band camp to enjoy next week. And the mental thingy is not working. Wah-liaos.

Spare me please.

2009-03-18T23:52:00.003+08:00

I feel so helpless and tired and drained and exhausted and lifeless. And I actually slept the whole day. Omg. So not productive.

Woke up and spent quite some time doing the bottle skin hahs. It looks super weird.

Life should not be made so complicated. We should just go through every decision made and not have second thoughts about it, and also brave every repercussion that comes along with it. If we regret every single decision we make, then there's nothing left for us to enjoy in life. We would be spending every minute pondering why we made such a decision and what would the outcome have been if we decided on the alternative instead. In that way, we would never have peace of mind.

We should just enjoy life as it moves along, have confidence in every decision made and make the best out of everything=D

2009-03-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

Now I know why teach rate of change in school.

Its for me to calculate the rate of water entering into my body and the rate of water coming out, and figure out how much water I need so that my body remains hydrated and I can get well soon.

Please, please, please let me get well faster. Cause its not just the flu. Everything else is kicking in too. Aargh=X I always fall sick at the wrong times.

on a britghter note, i've gotten my passion card. hahas. YAY!

2009-03-16T20:58:00.002+08:00

Im not supposed to be online but wth. GP was hahas. Studied after school, till my brain cells died I think.

Hahas erm sentimental shits.

2009-03-16T02:28:00.002+08:00

omg i think you really suck. are you like gonna disappear forever?

2009-03-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

N29, the impostor.

I just pray that I don't fall asleep in the middle of the paper tmr.

Say. Not. Say. Not. Say.

2009-03-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

With the aid of a telescope, you can see 7 trillion stars, four times the amount of sand there is in the world. Puts things into perspective doesn't it? Makes you realize and aware of how insignificant you really are.

I think its high time that we start appreciating our parents and being grateful and thankful that they are there for us. Cause most of us are probably accepting them as part of our life and thinking that that's how things are meant to be, and never once realizing how it would be like if they were painfully and prematurely taken away from us. When was it ever a convention or law that they ought to stay with us till we think we no longer need them? Its kinda painful to see how we have evolved to the point where we don't think we are lucky and fortunate to still have them around providing for us, answering to our every whims and fancies.

Stop being pampered ill-brats. Stop living in a fantasy where the world revolves around us. Come one, we're not Copernicus or Galileo to come up with such theories. The world can still survivie without us, probably be an even better place without our presence.

I dont know what Im actually talking about, but anyways, RECESS was fun hahas. Although I was shaking terribly during Endless Love and made a couple of retarded mistakes, I still had fun!

Thanks section for the wonderful time playing together!
Thanks Pohyi, Haf and Jiayi for coming down.
and Thanks for the broccoli, the RedBull, and the attempt with the RedBull. hahas.
Thanks Von and Liqin, for wanting to come in the first place, but couldnt. Its ok=)

I wonder what your reaction will be like if

2009-03-12T22:56:00.001+08:00

To the core. Infinte. Boundless.

Hero. Idol. Look up to. Have never failed or disappointed. Still the best, still number one. Always will be.

2009-03-10T22:12:00.002+08:00

Insignificant half. Small. Negligible.

Thoughtful contemplations used to be rare occurences in the past.

Hehs. Ck is a bad influence. Stay away from him. He'll influence you to mis-read the lecture on your timetable as a break. You bad.

2009-03-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

Weird. Transition. Unexplainable.

Do you notice me? What if I said, I like you?

2009-03-09T19:58:00.001+08:00

Omg.

2009-03-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

Chiong, chiong, chiong. I love the adrenaline that courses through my blood and the energy that rushes through me everytime I chiong my work.

And its a miracle I can actually complete them in time. Ahhahs.

RECESS in 6 days time! Please come down and support us in our first every official concert. We're playing pieces like Amazing Grace, First Suite in Eb, Yesterday, March Blue Sky, and Endless Love (which I totally LOVE, cos I get the raised hair everytime we play it)

Okay, just now was like super retarded. Going back and forth like nobody's business.

I want to learn to play the harp.

Is there any poetic justice in the world? Or does it only exist in writings and figments of our imaginations?

2009-03-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Ange.

2009-03-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

Hoho. I actually slept my way throughout Maths and woke up for the last 15 minutes of the lecture. Pig me.

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
Theres always one reason
To feel not good enough
And its hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
Theres vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It dont make no difference
Escaping one last time
Its easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
Youre in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Too bad its rather hard to arrange it for band hehs=X

2009-03-02T23:30:00.009+08:00

Omgosh I have been a very productive person today! I completed my Malay essay (rather crappy ahhahs) in the early hours, went to school, actually finished the Economics test, did my Chemistry tutorials and assignment and actually passed my first ever CA quiz. Woahs.

Invested some money in a file to properly store my notes, which is the first step towards better grades! Here's to more organized notes lol.

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIBAOYI!

M-18 sehh. There's suddenly so many things you can do ahhas. And dont forget your anti-aging products or your wrinke-removing cream. Hahahs. *Does the wipe window thing* Ohh, oops, I mean wave! Really apologize for the slipshod birthday quintet which didn't really go that well, but yehh. We need to start calling you jie from now on ahhahs.

I fell the sudden rush of optimistic energy. If only I can spread it and infect other people with it. Hahas.

The Lover Tells of the Rose in His Heart

All things uncomely and broken, all things worn out and old,
The cry of a child by the roadway, the creak of a lumbering cart,
The heavy steps of the ploughman, splashing the wintry mould,
Are wronging your image that blossoms a rose in the deeps of my heart.
The wrong of unshapely things is a wrong too great to be told;
I hunger to build them anew and sit on a green knoll apart,
With the earth and the sky and the water, re-made, like a casket of gold
For my dreams of your image that blossoms a rose in the deeps of my heart.

~~K3U~~

2009-03-01T19:20:00.002+08:00

I had the sudden urge to post this.

Hey retard. Okay, sorry, hahas, you're not a retard. Anyway, I seriously have no fcking idea how I'm supposed to contact you since you just disappeared like that. Then again, that's what you're good at, disappearing. Hahas. I'm never gonna forgive you for the many times you'v gone off just like that. Or maybe, I've already forgiven you long ago.

But thats beside the point. The last time I had contact with you was on the 6th of January, and it was really abrupt and short. And you said you were gonna come online in another 2 months time.

I assume you're like busy with your life now, but I really hope you remember what you said to me that night, and that you'll come online again!

I really miss you hehs.

2009-02-28T23:22:00.003+08:00

The two-almost parallel marks on my right wrist is still there, almost a week already.

If you’re not too long, I’ll wait for you all my life.

2009-02-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

Fridays.

I love Fridays. But I love Mondays, and Tuesdays, and Wednesdays, and Thursdays too. Cause there's school. And I like school for all the wrong reasons haha. Which is good cause it prevents me from skipping school.

Hmmms. Today was a bit disappointing though, but its ok cause the morning made up for the evening. Yehhs. Haha. And I'm extremely tired now, not forgetting the fact there's alumni band tmr hahas.

Just sleep, gonna be okay.
Just sleep, toss in your bed.
Just sleep, gonna be okay.
Sleep, sleep, j-j-just sleep

Hahas. Wth. Pathetic attempts to write a parody.

2009-02-27T06:05:00.000+08:00

I shall dis-Integrate and rotate myself about the x-axis several times.

2009-02-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

By my faith , I would be able to survive this chapter.

Through you,
I can scale mountains;
I can cross oceans;
I can reach for the moon;
I can feel the sun;
I can gather the stars;
I can waltz in the sky;
I can do everything.

My pillar, my strength.

Forever, and always.

2009-02-23T00:49:00.003+08:00

I am screwed.

For a moment, I forgot which topic we were doing for Chemistry Tutorial.

And I just realized that the Maths test is this Friday and I don't know shits about Integration and Differential Equations without the lecure notes.

I need a miracle, now.

2009-02-22T19:38:00.002+08:00

RoadRace 2009

Or as they call it this year, Olympica Parada. Wth. Knn. Cb. Wtf. Omg. Gad. AAAAARGH.

ODAC is so not a Club/Societies/Performing Arts CCA. The Club in ODAC is so not literally a club. They're more of a sports CCA sia. Wth. I ran like super shit thinking that at least Band can get either one of the top 3 places. And, guess what? NO. That CCA on top swept away all three places. Wth. What's the point of being 42nd then?

Hahas, okay, I've actually gotten over it, but yeahh. Just needed to post about it! Lols.

And then, there was bbq! Omgosh. It was like super fun and tiring. Met up earlier and prepared the decorations at Macs. I disappeared when almost everyone arrived and went home to collect the cake. Hahas. It was funny when I came back and Poi and JY was at the toilet cause we were frantically trying to light the candles but the wind kept blewing it away, so we had to like, crouch and crowd around the cake to protect the flame from the wind. JY kept sms-ing and calling, and in the end, the surprise worked, even though Poi kind of suspected something! Hahahs.

And we were like cam-whoring and having fun bbq-ing till like eleven plus lols. I dont mind arranging another bbq for the next birthday. Hahas. And no, its not yours JY. You didnt want to go broke remember? Hahahs.

So yesterday kind of tired me out and I woke up at 4 hahahs. Called Singtel with regards to my laptop's unability to connect to the Internet, and spend like 1 hour on the phone with the operator. In the end, nothing was solved and when I finally put down the phone, the Internet connection came back hahahahahs.

Oh well. Yesterday's Road Race left me shuang, as JY always puts it.

2009-02-18T23:16:00.001+08:00

Forever, and always.

2009-02-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

I'm so disappointing. I promised myself I'll study for Chemistry today, but after AlumniBand, I slept all the way and woke up only at 7. Hahs. Pig.

Yesterday was just fun. Friday fun. Fridays are forever fun anyway. Schoool was ok. Received rather depressing news, but heck. I can make it. Slacked at the library before band with a few other people. Band was ok. I rather MP now, seeing that we've practice so hard for it. All that sweat and blood.

But after band was just crazy hahahs. Running around with KN's ezlink card, singing Everytime You Touch ten thousand times(I think), making fake voices with JY's phone, MACS time and the free satay. I eventually reached home at 11 and yehh, my mum was kinda pissi-fied. Oops.

Too much love. No love is okayy cause when it finally hits you, its blissful and the moment is eternal. A little love is acceptable cause it leaves you yearning for more. But too much can get really sick, like that sickeningly sweet smell which is emanating from the ice-cream shop at White Sands, the one near the entrance.

Should not think so much. Hahahs. Star-cross'd.

Lavender was nice, and now they're showing this Korean drama on Channel U. Ahhaks;

2009-02-12T23:51:00.001+08:00

Its one of my all-time favourites. It just has this catchy tune that'll lift you up everytime you are down. And even though I've never really watched Big Fish, I still find the story to the song very moving.

2009-02-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

Burst out laughing. 'And she can do pull-ups with her..." Its being repeated, for the umpteenth time.

Self-restraint is not working. We're all holding on to our sides, stomach aching from all the 'hahas'.

Awkward silence follows.

This is super random, but I adore section dinners after band. Hahs.

The legs have been aching since last week. Must get used to all the daily, weekdays running. Monday and Thursday with JY during the wellness session (yehh, I feel out of place during this time), Tuesday and Friday during P.E. and Wednesday with section after band.

Too bad you, I don't give up easily. I AM ~~Temasek~~(oops) Persistent.

More random stuff. I don't mug for long periods of time.

Back in 2007, people were busy mugging for Prelims during Elearning Day and I was at Vivo watching movies and soaking in the pool and the sun.

When everyone was rushing their revision for 'O's, I was watching Princess Hours on YouTube. I only studied for each paper the night before. Hahs.

J1s were busy mugging during the June holidays for Mid-Years. I spent my nights working and my days literally sleeping like a pig.

And history repeated itself when I studied for Promos the day before when its a morning paper, and the morning itself when its an afternoon paper.

I just cannot MUG. Hahahs. Maybe should consider CUP or GLASS instead.

We'll miss you Maryy!