listening to the SYF recording can only do so much but bring back wonderful memories of th band. sighs.
stepping down is the harsh reality now. syf robbed me of my free time and without realizing, i willingly gave it. all of a sudden, my nights are free. my wednesdays evening are free. my friday evenings are empty. and i wont get to see section everyday. sadded.
wednesday morning came so fast, we thought it was still quite ago that we had 69 days to it. i was late-_- but i still made it. the euphoria of finally facing th day itself was undescribable. th pressure was unforgettable. and then we were already tuning and waiting outside th hall. that moment with ms sia joking around was something worth remembering. i can still recall the feelings in my nerve back then.
and then it came to F. omgosh hahas. evonne said she could feel th nervousness and th fear emanating from me. i swear, using an oft-used cliche, my heart was going mad and wild and it was something ive never felt before and it was something i liked because of th energy it provided me with afterthat. and as soon as we started, it was over. we camwhored outside th hall, went for lunch, camwhored somemore, and then went in for results.
the general feeling between liqin, evonne and me at that time was just anxiety and fear after they said we can expect lower. evonne was already crying ande i couldnt bother to do anything else. but when they announced that 'gold', i didnt cheer or clap. i merely sighed. but contained within that sigh was all the anxiety, fear, nerves, and months of arduous, torturous hardwork which required tons of sacrifice. (:
my heart went out to tj=s
and now, its already 2 days since 6th may, but it felt like another thousand years have gone by. band just now was moving and extremely emotional. th gift really touched me, a sincere artifact representing gratitude and appreciation that words can never express. thanks to sharilyn, vanessa and amirah. th video was ok and yess, i didnt cry hahas. but i almost teared up when i saw th photo that captured my momentary glory in japan. i could die for moments like that.
bbq was fun. camwhored non-stop. fanned th fire throughout, as usual hahs. im so gonna miss section, even if you people dont miss my crazy antics, lame remarks, retarded comments and below frequency jokes.
ive never been a good band member, let alone th best section mate or ASs you can get. but i hope ive tried my best(: